Bed Rest & Blessings

Though it may sound like it, I am truly not "complaining" about having to be on bed rest during my pregnancy. In fact, it's turned out to be somewhat of a blessing after I have begun to look at it differently. You see, I would do anything for this child and those of you who know me, know what I must do to give this baby a chance at coming home to live with us. You know that I give myself a shot every day in my stomach which is covered in bruises,  and that I inserted 6 pills 'down stairs' every night for 9 weeks to hopefully not miscarry early, and that I take an entire palm-full of pills every day for this little one. And to be honest, I feel blessed. I feel blessed that those medications and doctors have the knowledge and answers to help me have a family. It truly is a blessing, inconvenient or not. I have no problem doing everything in my power to get this baby here and cannot wait to hold my precious gift in my arms.

However, this whole bed rest bit has been extremely difficult. If I wasn't 'ordered' to be on bed rest, it truthfully sounded great to be able to lounge around all day. But now that I am here and it's happening, it is really, really difficult. I am pretty lonely and yesterday found myself in a bit of depression. Jeff works a lot so he isn't going to be able to be with me 24/7 and I don't expect him to just sit around rather than do something fun with his friends once in a while. It would just be kinda nice to be able to go run my own errands, go out to lunch, etc. After a really good talk with Jeff last night, I feel much better about the whole thing. We got Jeff a book called "Dude, You're Going to Be a Dad!" and we started reading it together last night. He agreed that he could take more part in trying to be 'involved' with the pregnancy, so I do feel much better and blessed to have gotten it all off my chest. I also feel blessed knowing that my groceries will be delivered tomorrow to my doorstep without having to lift a finger. Not only that, it's free for my first time! I am also blessed because I will have tons of time to truly soak in and absorb my Advent Bible study. I think this is a perfect time to get in tune with God and thank him for all He has given me. So, that being said, bed rest has been a lesson for me, and it's only day 4! I am hoping that I don't have to be on this regimen for long period of time, but if that is what is in the plans then so be it. I will get through it with the help, guidance, and blessings from above!! :)